Six Months

December 10th, 2016
Six Months
Dearest Zarah-
Here is a list of just who you are right now:
  1. A food lover: cereal, bananas, sweet potatoes, squash, anything really. You sit in your bumbo with straight arms and legs, twirling both your hands and feet, dive bombing the spoon and moaning for more.
  2. A laughing fool. You think your brother is hilarious. Whatever he is doing, you think it's funny and great.   You love to be tickled, when mom comes home from work and when daddy plays heads with you.
  3. An ok sleeper. I think you are better than your brother was as a baby but you still get up once or twice at night. Sometimes you think you need an hour or so to party mid-night(like last night) which isn't mommy’s favorite. Thank heavens for a big bed and Little Einsteins.
  4. A roller. I rock, you roll. Soon you will probably crawl but now you get pretty far just by rolling and rolling.
  5. A giant. Not really but you are super good at growing out of clothes and your swing is starting to seem a bit small. You're almost into 9 month clothes and wear size three diapers.
  6. A girl who knows what she wants. You also tell us by grunting, screaming and by batting or throwing toys you don't want out of the way, so you already a communicator!
  7. A lover. You just love people. At first you may play a little bashful when you greet those you don't know well but you always give cute smiles freely. Your charm is irresistible!
  8. A talker. You have the cutest little voice. You talk both quiet and loud. You talk both high and low. You just talk and talk and talk.
  9. A wiggle worm. You're starting to be pretty squirrelly when held. A definite sign you'll be mobile soon. You can almost sit unassisted and can also almost get up from laying down.
  10. A sweetheart, a darling heart, an overall chill baby! Your calm calms me. Your smile lights up rooms. Your laugh energizes.

We love you sweet Zarah Sue. You are growing fast and I keep just loving every moment. It feels like tomorrow you'll be leaving for college but that you also will be my baby forever. Always remember how much I love and adore you and remember to text or call me today. I miss you!!



Zarah is Five Months!

Dear Zarah-
Happy five month birthday. You are so fun and are growing like a little weed. What was it even like without you in our family and lives? I cannot remember.

You are a sweet baby, still very easy, content and happy. You know exactly what you want and always tell us all about it. You only cry when you're hungry, tired, wet or bored.

You have recently discovered your feet and how to control them. This comes in handy because you hate socks and now easily get them off by rubbing and rubbing the bottoms of your feet together.

You also have recently figured out how to roll over. You can go from back to stomach and back to your back but you usually get stuck on your stomach and cry for help. Soon you will be mobile and I will need to baby proof or we are in trouble.

You love to sleep in your swing(but in order to get asleep need one of your parents in the recliner next to you to keep your bink in your mouth and sometimes rub your face) and are often just waking up when I come home from work. I love how you smile and laugh as I come in and get really sad if I walk away to put my school stuff up.

Even though you sleep well in your swing, I often just want to hold you while you sleep. In fact, as I write this you are snoring in my arms. What a sweet noise that is.

You still love to be with us and always cry if left alone in a room, even if only for a few seconds. You drool and drool when we eat dinner and must sit with us in your bumbo on the table. You are my favorite centerpiece! You will be ready for food very soon!

You are a happy baby and laugh a lot. Especially when your brother is laying in the bath being silly. You both make the other laugh more and more.

You were a pumpkin on Halloween(and Sully from Monsters’ Inc for Trunk or Treat the Saturday before) and loved having “cousin” Rey join you on a blanket(She was also a pumpkin.  Your brothers said:  Two babies, two pumpkins!) as we got your brother ready in his Olaf costume. You were a good sport as we traveled around town visiting with friends. You even took a good nap all bundled up in your car seat(your brother too) as daddy and I ate sandwiches for dinner in the car.

Your hair is my favorite right now because after a bath I can make it into a Mohawk with lotion and it sticks for a whole week. You are already a pretty trendy girl!

You love to make noises. Your newest is to blow raspberries at your daddy. You love to talk to him especially when he's just come back from work for dinner or is just leaving for work. You also talk and skreech. It's fun to see you wanting to interact!

I sure do love you sweet Zarah Sue. I am so lucky to be your Mom!

Love you,


Zarah is 4 months!!!

Dear Zarah-
Where have the last four months gone? You came at the beginning of summer and it's now fall. Mommy has been back to work for two months already. I thought time flew fast with your brother but it seems to be even faster with you!

You are beautiful. People tell me this all the time but I have always known it. As I write this, you are laying in my arms asleep. Your little face is so cute and your soft snores calming. Sometimes you smile and laugh while asleep like this and I often wonder what you are dreaming about. I know it just isn't about your short time here, something whispers to me in times like this that you came from a heavenly place and we were together long before these moments. I'm so glad we are together again!

You are a wonderful addition to our family. You love all of us. You laugh at your brother and are often interested in whatever he is doing and he truly adores you. He stares at you when he sits next to you and the following picture took about 20 tries to get!
See how he stares:
You love daddy and mommy too and get very offended whenever we walk away from you. You love your swing during the day with daddy but always want me to hold you while sleeping when I'm home. 

You are rarely sad and almost always smile when we talk to you. You are just so sweet and calm. The only things that bug you are wet diapers and cold milk. 

You have started to play with toys and grab things. You also can now be in your Bumbo at dinner. 
You are definitely the best center piece anybody could ask for. You already are excited about real food and drool and drool as you stare at whatever we are eating!

I love you so much baby girl. I must now go stare at your face because what they say is true "babies don't keep!"


Zarah is Three Months

Dear Zarah-
Well. I blinked and three months have gone by. As I write this, you are peacefully snoring at the foot of my bed in a Boo outfit from the Monsters Inc. movie. Man, you are adorable. 

You have grown so much. Not sure how much you weigh(you have your two month appointment tomorrow...I guess we are behind in both letters and getting you to your pediatrician appointments.) You are a great eater, even if you still are getting used to having to eat from a bottle now that mommy is back to work. 

You are thankfully one chill baby. You hardly ever cry. In the middle of the night, you only grunt to get me up to feed you. I think the only times you really cry hard are when I've let you wait too long to eat, your bum is dirty or wet and if you miss your parents. 

You are silly too. You have a fun little personality. You are always smiling and already laughing on purpose. You make noises to get attention and are trying but really hard to blow raspberries. You love to be held but are okay in your swing and car seat. 

You think your big brother is hilarious even though sometimes he startles you because he thinks it's hilarious!

I'm so glad I get to be your mommy and to watch you grow. It will be so fun to see you develop. I love you, Sweet Lady!  

Sleep well tonight and thanks for the peaceful calm that comes with those sweet little snores. 


Three Years

Dear Ellis-
Today you officially turn three. What a wonderful three years we have had together. It is hard to believe you are already three, but it also feels like I blinked my eyes and poof, you're three. It seems to have flown by, yet I cannot remember life without you. You are so much a part of me and who I am. Our family often revolves around you. 

You might be a little spoiled, but I don't think it is damaging you too badly. You had a great birthday party in Wisconsin a little over a week ago. You loved being the center of attention. Your birthday cake was made possible by my aunt Linda and cousin Shannon. They made it a custom Thomas the Train cake. It had five glow in the dark mini trains. It was so colorful and delicious. You loved it and told Papa you were eating his cake!!! Always a tease!

You played all afternoon with my cousin's son, Crane, who is only a few months older than you. You both play well together even if you sometimes fight. You played with my other cousin's daughter's dolls and stroller for much of the time. The rest of the time you were chasing each other and squealing outside. 

Grandma Sue has always spoiled you and she was the one who thought we should have the whole family over to celebrate your birthday and meet your new baby sister. It was a very fun day. 

You are always loved by everybody you meet. You are one of the friendliest kids I've ever met. You say hi to strangers. I always wonder if I should step in and have the stranger danger talk with you but I feel I also don't want to stop you from loving and respecting all the humans you meet. It is one of your characteristics that I often find myself wishing I'd be better at myself. As an adult, I am often more judgemental and shy. 

You have been loving our visit to Wisconsin. You have played so hard that you often are asleep by the time we get back to Grandma and Grandpa's house. You love your cousin Chloe and all of her cousins too. They all know you, which again surprises me because I barely can recall any of their names. You have been playing lots with their toys, which are often girls toys, but you haven't been ruined by society's expectation that you only should play with cars and balls. In so many ways you are not trapped in a box of expectation like us adults are. You are still excited about the small things we often take for granted. 

I laughed as you ran through the Salt Lake airport saying things to the other travelers like: "look another airplane!" and "I'm riding on airplane today!"  I like to watch how other people react to your enthusiasm and how most of them smiled and laughed as you quickly whizzed by them on your way to see more airplanes. I think we were all reminded that it actually is a pretty cool and amazing thing to be able to travel quickly around the world thanks to airplanes. 

I am very tired lately(parenting babies is hard work)and I often feel like I am bad at giving you all the attention you need, but you don't ever love me less. You always need a kiss on your skinned knees(you got a doozie while out to dinner the other night) and will always take a cuddle as you drift off to sleep. You are a sweet little boy and I love being your mom. 

May you always find awe in the small things and be looking for adventures daily(you said: "I want to go on adventure" every day that Andi and Grandma were with us visiting after baby sister was born!). You will always be my little Bugaboo. I always learn more about life and living through your little eyes than I am teaching you. I love you and hope this year is a great one for you. May we fill it with adventure and awe. 

Happy birthday, my sweet boy! I love you!!