2/24/08

Crying is an Evolutionary Tool!

I hate crying in front of other people. I just feel stupid and weak when I do. I was reminded of this again on Friday. It has been an emotional few days. On Thursday, I got a text from a friend who told me that they had gotten some bad news about her mother. Her mom has cancer and the news is that pretty much the cancer is everywhere in her body. This friend didn't want to talk about the news and that was both hard and relieving. Hard because I really wanted to know what the news was(she didn't even want to tell anybody the news.) and relieving because I really didn't want to have to talk about it because I knew it was bad. Anyway, that day, whenever I saw her, I wanted to hug her and tell her everything would be okay. I couldn't do that because I knew both of us would lose it and that is not a good thing to do in front of teenagers.

It is hard to go through the death of a loved one, but it is also hard to be a friend who has to see a good friend go through the death of a loved one. I feel like I never know what to say or do, but I feel so much sorrow. From past experience, I have realized that you can't just not say anything and avoid the person, because it doesn't help them or you. I am slowly realizing that just crying for and being there for a person is so important.

One of my wise friends, MBC, told me that crying is a good thing. People need to cry. Basically it is an evolutionary tool which signifies to other humans that you are hurting and need to be comforted. I had never thought of that before but it is pretty much true! I am trying to be okay with crying.

The weekend has gone too fast. I really would just like to go to Hawaii instead of work tomorrow. Too bad that is not an option. I am kinda burnt out right now. February does that to people. I have probably mentioned all of this already.

I was able to go to Enchanted again at the dollar theater. Love that movie. I sure do like movies. Last night, I went up to Salt Lake and spent some time with the adopted family. The Bills always have a way of calming me, even when they are sick and tired. Kent, Anne and I had a good hour long conversation last night. They are so supportive of me and so very nice. Erin and Isaac went to dinner with me. We were supposed to go to a movie as well but they were very tired.

Today was just another Sunday. I made some good pork chops.

Well, here is to a good week for everybody. Chins up; Spring is just around the corner! :)