10/27/13

Spiritual Sunday

Sometimes life gives you a slap in the face. Well, seeing it is Spiritual Sunday, and I am very much a Christian and believe in God, let's say sometimes God gives you a slap in the face. It's sometimes needed as a parent to actually slap kids in the face. Okay, maybe that isn't the right thing to say but from experience, it only took one slap to realize I was out of line when I had said something disrespectful about my parent, just sayin'!

Anyway, I have been struggling at work. My passion has been missing. I had turned into one of those dreaded people who just show up for a paycheck. I wasn't loving the kids and I was starting to not care enough to do the best job. I was also judging people I work with and the kids I serve. I was not loving them like I should. 

Many times when I start feeling drained , I realize I haven't been giving my spirituality enough attention. So one day, while spending time in my office during my prep hour, I pulled out my little copy of The Book of Mormon(if you haven't had a chance to read this book or don't know about it, you can find more here). I flipped open to Alma chapter five and came across verse 28: "Behold, are ye stripped of pride? I say unto you, if ye are not ye are not prepared to meet God. Behold ye must prepare quickly; for the kingdom of heaven is soon at hand, and such an one hath not eternal life."

Yep, I felt it, I was becoming full of pride again. I had started to find myself most important and I had actually started to voice it to other people. I had started to be sarcastic towards students and was talking about co-workers in a prideful way. In a couple of verses later in Alma 5 it reads: "And again I say unto you, is there one among you that doth make a mock of his brother, or that heapeth upon him persecutions?"  I was guilty of exactly this.

So, that one small moment changed the whole week.  I decided that I couldn't live at this part of the pride cycle anymore and I decided to make a change.  The week went better from there on.  I guess sometimes we just need a kick in the face and things go better.  Also, sometimes just a small change can make all the difference.