Reflection on a school year.

As the end of the school year approaches, I am feeling a little like a mother hen who is saying goodbye to her little chicks.  She has gathered them in for a a season and tried to teach them the things they need to survive outside of the coop.

I look through my class lists of names and I find myself asking if I have made a difference for each one of those individuals.  Have I taught them the things from my curriculum that will help them make healthy choices?  Have I showed them that teachers care and that they are each cared for no matter how they act or who they are?  Have I showed them an example of somebody who is not judgemental and gives them the benefit of the doubt on all occasions?  Have I kept my cool?  Have I been fair?  Have I done what I could have?

I truly do love my job.  I like to see young adults figure things out.  I like to see them understand that school isn't just about grades and that how we treat each other is the most important thing we do.

Too many times, we all find it easy to judge other people and complain about "their" behavior.  We tend to forget that we are not all perfect and that we are all on a different segment on this journey that is life.  We are often too hard on each other.  Sometimes we are even too hard on ourselves.

Just a little tidbit of thoughts as I end this day.  There are only a few weeks left in this school year's journey and I hope the last few weeks I can remember this stuff rather than just wishing it away so I can have my break for summer.  I was glad that I was reminded today that my job is significant and that I have a duty to try and make a difference.  What a great responsibility and a tremendous blessing.



Hi.  It's May.  I don't even remember the last time I posted so I thought it was about time. Life is good here.  Just living the dream as I always tell people when they ask me how I am doing.

Right now, I am taking a million pictures from my phone and getting them onto a flash drive.  It is hard work.  I figured, seeing that I am here in front of the laptop and Reuben has Ellis for a few minutes, I should write on here.  Don't you just feel lucky to be reading?  I thought so. And can you believe my little guy was this small?  I have a hard time believing it when I see all these old pics!

Work has been a challenge lately.  Okay, so Monday was a huge challenge, but the rest of the week seemed to go smoothly.  I guess we all have THOSE kind of days.

I hadn't slept more than about 3 hours(Ellis decided that being up from about 4:30 until mommy went to work was a great plan), Reuben and I were both exhausted so we were a little mean to one another that morning, and then one of my students was a complete, well I don't usually use the word that comes to mind, so I will let it go.

In twelve years working in my current position, I have never had to leave my class.  But in the mood I was already in, I was either going to call that girl the word that was coming to mind, or I was going to throw something at her.  Both of those options probably would have had negative consequences.  So, I turned to my aide and said "I am going to go for a little walk, I should be back in a few minutes."  Then, as I opened the door to go into the hallway, I lost it.  When I am mad, I cry and cry.  So, I headed to my office to embrace the coming breakdown.  I then texted my vice principal to let her know what was going on and she went and covered my class and then checked on me after that class.  I was a wreck, so after meeting with the principal(who was also concerned about me and encouraged me to take the rest of the day off and to go home), I decided to go home.

It is amazing what a good nights rest after a horrible day will do.  The next day was fine and the rest of the week went without incident.  Good times.

Other than that, I am just living life.  I work, I come home, I sleep a little, then I wake up and do it all over again.

There are only about 20 days left of school, but who is counting.  I am looking forward to being a full time mommy for a couple of months and having many adventures. As I was telling some friends last night, I like Summer Alice; I can't wait to meet her again. (And by the way, don't get me wrong, I really do love my job and am very grateful for it, but this time of year is what every teacher needs to be able to love kids again come August.  Just sayin')

What have you guys been up to?